via Jess Lively.
I know it can be useful in some arenas…say, when you’re outrunning a cougar in the woods or stepping out into a dark alley alone wearing expensive jewelry (adrenaline is so helpful in such situations). Yet, when I think about how fear can block progress, I like to imagine what my life would be like as a fearless She-warrior-princess.
Every time I look fear square in the eyes and do it anyway (it meaning so many things on my bucket list), I’ve been so glad I did.
Every. single. time.
You’d think that I would see this pattern and live in a constant state of Get-er-Done and potential accolades, but sigh...my fearlessness seems to wane when trying something completely new.
That’s the naming it part, I guess.
So I’ve got this bee in my bonnet. ‘Been kicking it around on the field of What ifs? for months now, wondering if I can really do it. Okay….dream sharing ahead—
I’d like to write a novel.
With one nonfiction book under my belt, I’m feeling a little more daring than I was in my pre-nonfiction-book-writing creative life …but I’m still loitering on that corner of Who-do-I-think-I-am? Street and How-hard-can-it-be? Avenue.
I need to pick one.
Hovering over a canyon of possibilities isn’t helping anyone (certainly not me) and I must remind myself of the question I am constantly throwing at the kidlets:
What’s the worst thing that can happen if I do this?
Photo by Anja Stiegler
I guess it could be terrible. It could be rejected by a thousand publishers. It could sit on my desk and never be read by anyone but me. The cheese stands alone, so to speak.
Photo by Kirill Vorontsov
It could be successful. It could be a blast to write. It could lead me to fun locations to do research.
I’m all in.
The plot has been loosely sketched out in the past few days. It involves small town Texas and big city New York…it centers around an artistic woman on a journey to reclaim the person she once was. Yes, I do believe this might be a good time!A
The novel-writing thing is not the big change I have coming my way in this vida loca of mine. I’m getting closer to sharing with you (sweet Lovelies) what the heck is going on. It’s good stuff. Will share soon.