It’s that time again.
Time to pick my One Word Resolution for the year. Have you ever done this? Interesting practice…I like it much better than the usual resolution list that seems to drop off around mid-February. I had Leap in 2011 (looking back that was pretty fitting) and then Mastery (which turned into Trust) in 2012. Needless to say, I realized that I wasn’t quite clear on where I was heading when I chose the first one that year. It was a bit jumbled.
Yesterday I used a very chilly, sunny motorbike ride with PH to do some thinking about the words that have been popping up for 2013. I love being on the back of that thing—something happens when the world is wizzing by, I’ve got a firm grip on the one I trust most in this world and we are moooving…something about going forward in such rapid pace that is a metaphor for gettin’ on with it. I thought about how I like to know the outcome of things. Not a read-a-novel’s-ending-first kind of thing, but I like to be the planner and map out the road to where I want to go. But what if where I think I’m going is not really where I’m going to end up? I’ve had a big career thing come up in the past few months and I’ve made a decision. I’m not in a place to share it yet, but let’s just say it will change everything. Change scares me a little…okay…a lot, but I’ve finally pin-pointed some obstacles in my present work-life that are so tall, it’s hard to climb over them. Climbing isn’t necessary if you can go around.
It wasn’t what I was planning.
It wasn’t expected. (not pregnant, btw–ha!! yikes)
It certainly wasn’t on the list in 2012.
Yet, it somehow feels right and I’m choosing to release it.
That’s my word: RELEASE
It’s the exact opposite of what my heart wants to do.
I hold tight.
I’ve never been one for “letting it be” and I do realize that’s not necessarily a bad thing. I’ve accomplished a lot of things I’ve wanted to do because I’m driven and motivated, but I also miss things due to hyper-focus. Somehow I dismiss the things that come easily to me as not worthy of pursuit…everything has to be a challenge…a conquest. In all honesty, it’s exhausting. I’m at the point where I am releasing it (giving it up to God) and letting the chips fall. I’m not couch-bon-bon-eating-bound in any shape or form (once a list-maker, always a list-maker!), but I am letting go of obsessing and the need to overcome obstacles to get where I need to be. I’m allowing what naturally flows out of me to roll like a river…freely and happily.
Sounds vague, I realize. I will talk more as the weeks go because time will be the x-factor in this next adventure.
Release is also a good word for relationships…family and otherwise. Discovering the art of not having expectations is becoming huge in my life and I’m so grateful that I finally embraced this concept. There is so much peace in that place! Peace that has evaded me for years. Doing my best to love (even when it’s hard) asking for what I want, and letting go are the only things on the relationship list for the next year.
Have you given any thought to what your word may be for the new year? Is it time to leap and try new things? Is it time to be quiet and rest? Is this the year that you will write that novel or open that Etsy shop or go back to school? Maybe this is the year you finally take back the body and health you crave.
Whatever the goal, it’s got a word.
Oh, lovelies…happy new year to you and your family. I hope, for everyone’s sake, that this year has more peace and harmony than the last one. I think it was 9/11 when I was nursing an 11-day-old baby that I felt this way about our country. Always praying for peace…as I’m sure you are as well.
So much gratitude to you for reading this blog. Thank you!